joy in my heart

life has been crazy and i definitely owe this little blog a for real update, but for now i just wanted to share a quick little moment of joy in my life.

as i mentioned, i will be leading a new group of bible study girls in the fall--i have 12 names so far, and have friended many of them on facebook, and had sent them an intro/getting to know you message over a month ago but nothing had progressed.  i was honestly super bummed and kinda stressed that no one had gotten back to me after my message.  i knew several of them had big things going on over the summer, but still.  big scary fear and insecurity started grabbing hold in my heart.  what if they don't want me?  what if they think i'm old and stupid and irrelevant?  what if they think i'm too fat and materialistic?  more seriously, what if i've made the wrong choice in leaving my job and pursuing this?  my mind is a bad place sometimes.  last week i voiced my fears some to both my parents while on our vacation, and to my dear friend diana--they were encouraging and honest.  i have to realize that some of them may not want me as a leader.  any time that there is a transition in a bible study leader, some people usually stop coming, but all i am responsible for is to be available and welcoming and to try to show them Christ's love.  hopefully the group will grow as will relationships with each of these ladies, and our walks with the Lord.

well, tonight i got a message from one of the girls and she is excited to meet me and wants to get together soon!  i almost cried with joy!  it has been such a roller-coaster few weeks, and it just helped me feel confident that this is the Lord's will for my life. 

so...YAY!  i am excited about this step and please pray that the Lord will work as we all begin building relationships.  :)